Waiting in the dark
Hoping for you
To shed some light
To take me away
To hold me close
To be with me
But I sleep alone
Dreaming of you
To keep me warm
To take me away
To hold me close
To be with me
Will you come?
The gold crown
He was a boy
I was 10
He cheated -
12 times
The ring was thrown in his face,
when I found out.
A diamond
He was 17
I was 15
He made me cry -
constantly
The engagement ring fell out of his pocket,
when I broke free.
A sapphire
He was a man
I was 17
He chose money -
over me
The ring was at the jewelers,
when he broke my heart.
A promise
He was my age
I was 18
He loved me -
completely
The promise was broken,
and now hides in its box.
I'm lying, dying on the roadside.
Everyone passes,
No one stops.
No one can help me now.
I'm lying, dying on the roadside.
No one gawks,
No one stares.
No one comes to help me now.
I'm lying, dying on the roadside.
I'm tired
Tired of the lies
Tired of the excuses
Tired of waiting
For a phone that won't ring…
I'm going to go…
I'm leaving this place…
I'm going away.
Because
I'm tired of crying
I'm tired of hurting
I'm tired of wishing
For a life that won't come true…
I'm packing my things…
I'm calling my friends…
I don't need this anymore
I'm hurt
Abandoned
Scared
Alone
Waiting
You should call me
But you haven't yet
I need to hear your voice
But I'm worried about what you'll say
Life goes by me
As I wait for the ring
It doesn't come
Is this goodbye?
Why didn't you call?
Where are you?
Where am I now?
And what will I do?
Life goes by me
As I wait for the ring
It doesn't come
Life spins you round and round.
You wander around,
Dizzy, and
Confused.
Sometimes you fall.
Sometimes you pull yourself up and
spin some more.
Other times, someone lends you a hand,
Helps you up,
And spins with you.
And other times, you sit,
Dazed,
Confused,
Dizzy,
Watching the others spin.
Me?
I just lay back,
Close my eyes,
And hope no one steps on me.
Pitter
Patter
Pitter
Patter
goes the rain,
pounding on the roof.
It streams down my window
like vertical rivers.
The sun is hidden
by the dingy gray clouds.
I get up and put my shoes on.
Stealthily, I creep out the door.
Once outside, I run
until I can't run anymore.
My feet take me to a wide,
open blacktop,
soaked by the pouring rain.
Soon,
my feet begin to move.
I dance
and spin
and twirl
and run
in the rain.
My wet clothes cling to my body,
making me chilled.
But I can't tell.
The only thing I feel,
is
the rain.
My mother
is a black panther, stalking around, waiting to pounce.
My mother
is an old,
cornered,
calico cat,
slashing at you,
for no apparent reason.
My mother
is a mocking monkey,
making you mimic her.
My mother
is a chameleon,
changing her color,
from blonde,
to red,
to brown, to blonde,
to green (which was an accident), to brown, to red,
to blonde,
to gray.
My mother
is an ancient elephant,
never forgetting,
unless it's about you going out.
My mother
Music.
Sweet, calm,
loud, strong, singing, rocking,
Music.
The great wonder
of the world,
how,
you came to be?
You make people
cry, laugh,
sing, die,
Music.
People come
from all over
just to hear you.
You are a mystery,
Music.
People tap their toes,
sing out loud,
clap their hands,
for you,
Music.
Jazz, Rap, Hip Hop,
Classical, Rock,
Heavy Metal, Oldies,
Music.
How you turn people.
You make them
wild, calm, sad,
happy, afraid,
Music.
There you are.
You happen daily.
A beat, a tune,
a cry,
Music.
Don't ever go away.
The world
wouldn't work without you,
Music.
I'm stuck in a cage.
A cage made of rules.
A cage made to mold me,
To make my wings stay down.
A cage made with
no room,
no door,
no exit.
A cage built by my parents.
A cage so tightly shut on my beak, I can't sing.
Some can break their cages when they get older.
But not me.
I'm stuck.
I can't move,
I can't live.
Except the way the cage wants me to.
All of my dreams,
hopes,
and wishes are beyond these barred walls.
I can't reach them, until I break out.
I need to break this cage,
to bust free.
This cage is my doom until I destroy it.
Then,
I see a crack.
A way out!
A way to break free!
I'm trapped and scared.
S
The willow branches are arms, stretching to reach the ground.
The babbling water flows under the bridge.
The cold metal of the bridge is like ice as you sit on it.
The too tall grass creeps up the side of the brook like a child needing a haircut.
The beaten rocky path slithers along the edge of the brook.
The fish are like childrenplaying games as the tag and run.
The bridge carries a sweet yet pungent smell of wood, fish and dirt.
The faded red railing looks as if it shall fall soon from so many children playing on it.
The string-n-stick drag through the water, hoping for a nibble from a fish.
The mist still hangs from the morning m
Life spins you round and round.
You wander around,
Dizzy, and
Confused.
Sometimes you fall.
Sometimes you pull yourself up and
spin some more.
Other times, someone lends you a hand,
Helps you up,
And spins with you.
And other times, you sit,
Dazed,
Confused,
Dizzy,
Watching the others spin.
Me?
I just lay back,
Close my eyes,
And hope no one steps on me.
Current Residence: Minnesota Favourite genre of music: Metal, Rock, Alternative Operating System: XP Favourite cartoon character: TIGGER! Personal Quote: If Unsure what to do, Just Smile and Nod :)
Favourite Visual Artist
Thomas Kinkade
Favourite Movies
Anastasia, 10 Things I Hate About You, general chick flicks ;), Spiderman (both)
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Linkin Park, Switchfoot, Perfect Circle, Metallica
Favourite Writers
Shakespeare, Nora Roberts/J.D. Robb, J.K. Rowling
Favourite Games
Diablo, SIMS, Unreal Tournament
Favourite Gaming Platform
PC
Tools of the Trade
Caffeine, Music, Quiet, Fancy Pens, Fun Pencils, Friends
Haven't been on here in ages...
Damn...
I dunno... lot happening, and then when I cleared away time to check this site out, I had over 100 new deviations to look at, among other things....
now I have 127 deviations (and that's after I cleared away the ones I don't want to see) and I really can't look at them...
why? I dunno... just... too much I guess..
So yeah.. I'm still alive...
if anyone wants to catch up or keep in contact, my e-mail is crisindra@gmail.com or my myspace (yeah I have one now) is http://www.myspace.com/crysferret
Otherwise, I'll comment on deviations when I can...
*hugs and love*
So.. have had a lot of crap happen...
basically, for awhile was too depressed to visit the site and see all the wonderful artwork...
then my puter got bartered with... and my living situation compromised
so.. basically, now I have no puter, no internet (except at work) so not online much at all...
so.. unable to look through a lot of things and unable to post anything...
so I'm still alive.. and still here.. just unable to be on here much at all...
so.. again, i just ask for patience.... THANK YOU!!!
My birthday is on Monday!! My golden birthday too!
21!!! PARTAY!!!
I really don't care about gifts this year, I mean, they're great, and make me feel loved, but what I really want? A home... *cries*
I'll get one eventually.. in the meantime...
PARTAY!!! ALCOHOL!!!! WooHoo!!
Care to Join me?